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Sunday, May 16, 2010

Sunday Sermon #051610: Unfenced Transformer

Getting out of the way and allowing divinity to guide me has been a radical experience.  I am learning that the fences I built to keep others out have locked me in.   While life cuts wholes in the gates, I realize that fences and walls have nothing to do with safety.  As I walk beyond and through this rubble formerly known as wall, I am learning my ability to choose peace and joy are my safety net.  It is my willingness and spiritual practice to choose peace no matter what that shields me. And that is work...on a physical, emotional, spiritual, astral and psychological plane. I am grateful for the process. It is a challenge though...

In addition, I am amazed at the beauty in people that I have denied myself just because they did not "fit" or I ass-u-me-d I would not "fit" them.  The beautiful thing about allowing yourself to see, think, and imagine as a divine being is that spirit does not need to "fit".

I must admit, this newness is troubling at times.  Seeing myself and others from a space of divinity challenges EVERYTHING I thought I knew about myself and others.  It requires me to be new in every moment with everyone.  It requires me to transform and transcend.

So my quote this week and song this week is by Gnarles Barkley.   A very dear person that I had the blessed opportunity to meet while working on At Freedom's Door (http://www.citypaper.com/news/story.asp?id=13204) sent this song to me at the beginning of the year and it still resonates with my soul.  Thank you Aidah Rasheed.  This gift keeps giving.  May you be eternally blessed.


"Behold the beautiful and bold. Everyday I wake up to be new." Gnarls Barkley





(fenced in image from http://cracksinthepavement.com/)

Saturday Sights: Falling for Philly

 I might be falling for Philly. Amazing sights, sounds, people.  Thank you Philly for having me as a guest.  I had an amazing good time.  In two days you gifted me with a garden, an amazing spirit and artist Alan Bell (award winning documentary highlighting him http://www.youtube.com/user/ElanGep#p/u/5/EOiok8gpW4E), a rooftop sanctuary, a youth poetry slam (it was OFF THE CHAIN! http://www.facebook.com/PhillyYouthSlamLeague#!/event.php?eid=123779577636264), a vegan cheesesteak, Tom Kenyon (http://tomkenyon.com/), allowed me to be a witness to the beautiful spirit and artistry of Elan Gepner ( http://www.youtube.com/user/ElanGep), a circus in someone's backyard, a fire thrower/spinner, a sword swallower, murals, murals, murals, Fairmont Park (http://www.visitphilly.com/maps/category/fairmount-park/0/257), fresh basil, pick and eat strawberries, PIZZA!, I could go on and on and on...  Oh Philly...I will see you soon.  Here are just a few memories from my camera phone.  I am a little sore that I left my cameras at home. That's ok...next time!



Sunday, May 9, 2010

Sunday Sermon #050910: Who is imagining you?

Quote governing my week:
"It is not what you imagine.  It is who is imagining.  Are you a human, or a Divine Being?" -Law of Het Heru from MAAT: The 11 Laws of God by Ra Un Nefer Amen

Lately, the question in the forefront of my mind has been "how would my life be different if I didn't do anything out of fear or past pain?"  In my attempt to answer this question, I have left a 10-year career teaching middle school students, manifested a new job within the arts and in my community, wrote a book of affirmations that I am now shopping to publishers, and worked to dismantle all barriers to love within me.  Shifting my quality of life from living in fear/pain to living in love/peace is wonderful and amazing work but it is work indeed.  I have found that claiming it and visualizing it is a very important step, but a fairly surface step.  This mornings meditations led me to a deeper understanding and a key component of the act of visualizing and manifesting. Tua Neter Het Heru.


The first thing that I must consider when I am imagining is who am I when I am imagining?  Am I imagining/visualizing what I want from a very human space or am I imagining/visualizing as a divine being?  Answering this question first often changes the context and the depth of my visualizations.  It encourages me to see myself through an elevated/spiritual eye and feel myself with a cultivated heart.    When I visualize from a place of love/peace I find that the things that I want speak to my oneness with others, cultivates my will and fortifies my patience with my plans to attain what I desire.  In addition, visualizing as a divine being aligns me with divinity and keeps me walking on a divine path.


I am grateful for prayers and meditation.  I am grateful for my morning of dance with my Het-Heru sisters.  I am grateful for my experience and my family at KIMA.  I have left the building but that does not matter because our hearts and spirits do not rest in stone.  I am excited about manifesting/visualizing as a Divine Being.  I am grateful for being made in the image and likeness of God.  Let's go!


The Third Eye by Roy Ayers
Baby, Baby, Baby...look to the sky. Baby, Baby, Baby...look to the sky.  Seeking to find the third eye.  Seeking to find the third eye. Secrets of numbers.  Secrets of sound.  Secrets of sound.  Secrets of wisdom will be found.  

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Monday Meditation #050310: No Fear

Focusing on a prayer every week has brought me a lot of peace and opened me up to some wonderful conversations about prayer and spiritualized living.  Usually this post is on a Monday, but, I was up late on the phone talking to my mother about our favorite prayers and I think I JUST recovered from my 48-hours of film-making.  (REMINDER: Straight No Chaser's film shows at AFI on Friday night.  We are in GROUP H. Buy your tickets early they sell out fast.  We killed it! Come see it! http://www.48hourfilm.com/dc/


My mother loves the Psalms and I can see why.  They are beautifully written and you can find a psalm for any time and any situation.  Recently, I manifested a new job and experienced a little trepidation about moving on.  That's when I had to go back to an old standard.  


Psalms 27 has always been my FAVORITE Psalm.  When I needed to be reminded of my direction against adversity or in the winds of change- it is in Psalms 27 that I find solace and clarity.  Right now, we need to be courageous and speak up for our selves and our future in so many ways.  Whether it is about the environment, injustice, or just day to day living - we all need a shot of courage to move forward.  Here is what's in my glass.  I have posted two versions here.  Enjoy.




Psalm 27 (King James Version)

 1The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
 2When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.
 3Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.
 4One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple.
 5For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.
 6And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.
 7Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
 8When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.
 9Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
 10When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.
 11Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
 12Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
 13I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
 14Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.



Psalm 27 (New Living Translation)

 1 The Lord is my light and my salvation—
      so why should I be afraid?
   The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger,
      so why should I tremble?
 2 When evil people come to devour me,
      when my enemies and foes attack me,
      they will stumble and fall.
 3 Though a mighty army surrounds me,
      my heart will not be afraid.
   Even if I am attacked,
      I will remain confident. 
4 The one thing I ask of the Lord
      the thing I seek most—
   is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
      delighting in the Lord’s perfections
      and meditating in his Temple.
 5 For he will conceal me there when troubles come;
      he will hide me in his sanctuary.
      He will place me out of reach on a high rock.
 6 Then I will hold my head high
      above my enemies who surround me.
   At his sanctuary I will offer sacrifices with shouts of joy,
      singing and praising the Lord with music.
 7 Hear me as I pray, O Lord.
      Be merciful and answer me!
 8 My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”
      And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.”
 9 Do not turn your back on me.
      Do not reject your servant in anger.
      You have always been my helper.
   Don’t leave me now; don’t abandon me,
      O God of my salvation!
 10 Even if my father and mother abandon me,
      the Lord will hold me close.
 11 Teach me how to live, O Lord.
      Lead me along the right path,
      for my enemies are waiting for me.
 12 Do not let me fall into their hands.
      For they accuse me of things I’ve never done;
      with every breath they threaten me with violence.
 13 Yet I am confident I will see the Lord’s goodness
      while I am here in the land of the living.
 14 Wait patiently for the Lord.
      Be brave and courageous.
      Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Sunday Sermon #050210: Music, muse & inspiration

Inspiration for the week:
 “Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass…it's learning to dance in the rain.” - Unknown.


I got my quote this week from the end of an email from Mesi Walton.  She teaches an Afro Venezuelan dance class on Sunday's over at the Joy of Motion Atlas Theater location.  I have to get out there and check her class out.  Thanks Mesi for the quote! 


Music for the week:
"As the Rush Comes"

We drift deeper into the sound...life goes on.  We drift deeper into the sound...feeling strong.  So bring it on. So bring it on...Embrace me. Surround me as the rush comes!"


Something about this song makes me dig my heels into life, relax and enjoy the ride.  No matter what life brings you...relax and make the best of the ride. That is exactly what I plan to do this entire week.  Dig deep, relax and enjoy the ride.






Monday, April 26, 2010

Monday Meditation #042610: Three Prayers

Prayers are being answered left and right...no need to stop now!  Here are three short and sweet prayers from Chief John Yellow Lark and Ludwig Van Beethoven.

I Come Before You
By Chief John Yellow Lark
Oh Great Spirit, Whose voice I hear in the wind, Whose breath gives life to the world, Hear me! I come to you as one of your many children. I am small and weak. I need your strength and wisdom. May I walk in beauty. Make my eyes behold the red and purple sunset. Make my hands respect the things that you have made, And my ears sharp to hear your voice. Make me wise so that I may know the things That you have taught your children-- The lessons that you have hidden in every leaf and rock. Make me strong, not to be superior to my brothers, but to be able to fight my greatest enemy: myself. Make me ever ready to come to you with straight eyes, so that When life fades as the faded sunset My spirit will come to you without shame.






GIVE ME STRENGTH By: Ludwig Van Beethoven

O God, give me strength to be victorious over myself. Guide my spirit; raise me from these dark depths that my soul, trans ported through Your wisdom, may fearlessly struggle in fiery flight; for You alone understand and You alone can inspire me.


ONE THING MORE


We praise Your goodness that You have left nothing undone to draw us to Yourself; but one thing we ask of You, O God; that You not cease Your work in our improvement. Let us tend toward You, no matter by what means, and be fruitful in good works.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Sunday Sermon #042510: Music, muse & inspiration

Started this week off with more than a song to sing. But, I won't even try to put my bliss into words. Gonna need my camera or a canvas for that. I will just continue with this song and quote that got me out the door this Sunday. Thank you Navasha, Maimouna Yousseff and Mama Nataska Hummingbird.
~Enjoy.

“Cherish your visions and your dreams as they are the children of your soul; the blueprints of your ultimate achievements.”
- Napoleon Hill
Cherokee Morning Song perfoationz" at Amma's event for love and world Peace

Monday, April 19, 2010

Monday Meditation #041910: The Practice of Prayer

I LOVE to pray. I feel an illuminated sense of peace and well being when I open my heart to speak inside of spirit through prayer. Most times, it only takes me a few moments of quiet meditation and deep breathing to get me to a place of powerful prayer. However, when I'm at a loss for words, I look to the prayer traditions of people from around the world. I am comforted by the fact that no matter what our differences are, an overwhelming majority of the world prays.

Recently, I have enjoyed the utter beauty in Sufi prayers. Led to Sufism by RUMI, one of my favorite poets, I have found prayers that offer some of the most beautiful descriptions of God that I have ever seen. I also find the prayers to be inclusive of all aspects of the Divine without limiting "God" to a masculine model. The prayers are full of sweet surrender. Of late, I have started my day with the following prayer. Enjoy.

Invocation
Toward the One,the Perfection of Love, Harmony, and Beauty,the Only Being,United with all the Illuminated Souls, Who form the Embodiment of the Master,the Spirit of Guidance.

Morning Prayers
I. Saum
Praise be to Thee, Most Supreme God,Omnipotent, Omnipresent, All-pervading, the Only Being.
Take us in Thy Parental Arms, raise us from the denseness of the earth,
Thy Beauty do we worship, to Thee do we give willing surrender.
Most Merciful and Compassionate God, the Idealized Lord of the whole humanity,
Thee only do we worship, and towards Thee Alone we aspire.
Open our hearts towards Thy Beauty, illuminate our souls with Divine Light,
O Thou, the Perfection of Love, Harmony and Beauty, All-powerful Creator, Sustainer,
Judge and Forgiver of our shortcomings, Lord God of the East and of the West,
of the worlds above and below,and of the seen and unseen beings:
Pour upon us Thy Love and thy Light, give sustenance to our bodies, hearts and souls, use us for the purpose that Thy Wisdom chooseth, and guide us on the path of Thine Own Goodness.
Draw us closer to Thee every moment of our life,
until in us be reflected Thy Grace, Thy Glory,Thy Wisdom, Thy Joy and Thy Peace.
Amen.

II. May the Message of God reach far and wide.
(Repeat eleven times.)

III. Pir
Inspirer of my mind, consoler of my heart, healer of my spirit,
Thy presence lifteth me from earth to heaven, Thy words flow as the sacred river,
Thy thought riseth as a divine spring,Thy tender feelings waken sympathy in my heart.
Beloved Teacher, Thy very being is forgiveness.
The clouds of doubt and fear are scattered by Thy piercing glance.
All ignorance vanishes in Thy illuminating presence.
A new hope is born in my heart by breathing Thy peaceful atmosphere.
O inspiring Guide through life's puzzling ways, in Thee I feel abundance of blessing.
Amen.

V. Prayer for Peace
Send Thy peace, O Lord, which is perfect and everlasting, that our souls may radiate peace.
Send Thy peace, O Lord, that we may think, act, and speak harmoniously.
Send Thy peace, O Lord, that we may be contented and thankful for Thy bountiful gifts.
Send Thy peace, O Lord, that amidst our worldly strife we may enjoy thy bliss.
Send Thy peace, O Lord, that we may endure all, tolerate all in the thought of thy grace and mercy.
Send Thy peace, O Lord, that our lives may become a divine vision, and in Thy light all darkness may vanish. Send Thy peace, O Lord, our Father and Mother, that we Thy children on earth may all unite in one family.

Amen.

The art was found at the following site: http://www.superluminal.com/cookbook/index_gallery.html I may have to look into this cookbook!!

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Sunday Sermon #041810: Music, muse & inspiration

Starting the week with a quote & a theme song is my set up for a good week. This week, something short and sweet from Anais Nin and Don't Look Back by Bliss from their album quiet letters. I love the original and the Fug Mix so, I included them both. Lucinda Drayton's voice is enchanting. Now, this is the song I want playing again and again in my head this week.

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
~ anais nin
Don't Look Back by Bliss
Don´t have to question
Everything you feel
It´s in your heart
In your mind
In your soul

Not everything you want
Is what you need
Look inside look inside
And you´ll see

Don´t look back
Take it easy on yourself
Don´t look back
Don´t have to worry
Don´t look back
Take it easy on yourself
this time

as we rise we fall
fall to the ground
but get up get up on your feet
if you look around
there is always someone there
just look up look up to the skies

Don´t look back
Take it easy on your self
Don´t look back
Don´t have to worry
Don´t look back
Take it easy on yourself
This time

Monday, February 8, 2010

Douglass on Haiti. Douglass in the House.

"I regard her (Haiti) as the original pioneer emancipator of the nineteenth century..." Douglass, 1893

I was feeling the spirit of Frederick Douglass & Haiti HEAVY in my house yesterday. I could not understand it. Now I know why.

This morning, I saw my sister-friend's Facebook status: "February 7,1986~ marked the END of Duvalier Regime in Haiti...24 years later, Haitians continue to suffer...Remembering, Praying & Supporting Haiti." The current political landscape made me wonder...What would Douglass say today? How would his eyes see his beloved Haiti during these trying times?

I spent the morning buried in his chest of words. This is not the first time that I have found identity, meaning and solace there. Today, he enraptured me. All I could do was surrender. His lecture given in Chicago 1893 to commemorate the 90th anniversary of Haiti's independence is relevant today. It is as if he stood up to speak after the recent earthquake. As an ancestor, he still speaks about our beloved Haiti. He still reminds us that Haiti is not only the birthplace of black liberation in the world - it is the resurrection place of freedom for humanity. Haiti is why we don't accept slavery for ourselves or anyone else. Whether you are black, brown, yellow, red or pink...Haiti is our living proof of why we stand and are willing to die as long is our last breath is, " I AM FREE."

Haiti was born at a pivotal point in history and we forget that. We want to think that slavery was just about black people. It was not. It was about a rape of humanity. It was about the disintegration of the human spirit. It was about the acceleration of power by a very small group of people over the masses. The question of freedom was not a black question. It was a human question. It was an experiment to see if the world would stand for the enslavement of one and therefore welcome the enslavement of all over time.

Haiti reminded us all - black, white, poor, uneducated, privileged, yellow, red, man, woman - that we surrender to God alone. We are here to serve a higher power that exist in each in and beyond everyone of us. Haiti reminded us that if any man denies the God in himself to enslave the God in me then we all must die and I will happily return this body to the earth from which I come...right after yours. And that holds true because I am human. I am spirit. Not because I am black and a woman. My blackness and my womb merely informs the urgency of the matter.

I see these people and I wonder how the same ones who vilify Damballah manage to be snakes themselves. The same ones who claim to drink the blood of Christ are the first on site to slaughter the lamb. The same ones who quote the sermon on the mount are the first to lay Haiti, Congo, Bosnia,Tibet, Anacostia, Appalachia, Susquehanna, etc. flat on their back and I wonder who am I in all of this? I feel them crawling over earth, burning their own history into her face and it sickens me because I wonder...how long will it be before it is my face? How long will it be before it is your face? Or perhaps, by birth, by blood, by breathing - we are already marked. Well, if I am marked, it is so I won't forget and my existence won't let you forget. This mark is a reminder - like Douglass' speech, that we don't lay down under this blanket of snow. We won't surrender our humanity. We fight till the death.

You may not see it in some grand action, but best believe that the few of us left that know that we are marked with spirit of humanity are rising. We go to work every day. We teach your children. We manage your money. We grow your food. We are rising. We sit in your pews. We run your countries. We sort your coal. We sleep under the same sky and from this darkness we are rising and returning to that first light that the Divine commanded and we all are saying are those same first words..."Let there be light." And we are pulling out flashlights, cell phones, lighters, or just our pretty white teeth to let ANY man or woman know that we will not allow death and destruction, the separation of humanity, the pillaging of earth to hide and sleep in the corners of your words, actions, and policies. We will shine that light on you and what you do to Haiti because we know it is merely a prelude of what is to come for us all.

So, I return to my day to day with understanding. Don't see this as a surrender or slumber. I have looked at the history of humanity and turn its pages and seen this cycle of life and goodness. The human spirit is not one to deny. We have never been one to sleep when it is quiet.

I look around me and in my own mirror and watch the divine spirit whisper through those eyes, calling out to me and others those first words..."Let there be light...Let there be light...Let there be light."

For Haiti, for Southeast, for North and Long, for Appalachia, for Crenshaw, for Potomac, for the fertile crescent, for the delta, for the Ganges, for the Thames, for Canaan, for the Inuits, for the bluegrass, for the backwoods, for the rural plains, for the aborigine, for Liberia, for Sarajevo, for humanity...I stand up and say "Let there be light." Shine on these issues, so we truly understand and move forward.
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Sunday, January 31, 2010

Plugged/Unplugged: Hospital Bed Memoirs #1

Saline - drips. Heart machine - beeps. TV - flicks. Paging Dr. Singh...Paging Dr. Singh. The clock - ticks. The respirator - hisses. Florescent light - emits. A man - screams. The nurses - rush. Death - ushers in. Pain - hushed. The lullaby - announces. Baby girl and boy - born. Paging Dr. Coleman.... Paging Dr. Coleman.

Ms. Douglass?"

What time is it...?

"Ms. Douglass?"

Is it still dark outside...?

"Ms. Douglass. I need to check your vitals."

"You don't need any more blood, do you?"

"I'm sorry...we do."

Of course they do...

"My apologies. Good morning," I offered with a sleepy smile. He smiled.

"Good morning to you," he replies. "Very nice pressure, Ms. Douglass. Do you want the lights out?"

"Yes thank you. Am I your last stop?" I suddenly remembered him from last night. Long hours.

"Almost, Ms. Douglass," he whispered. "Almost."

"Well, have a good day. Get some rest."

"Thank you Ms. Douglass." With a quick gesture he turned the light off. I turned my head into the pillow. He seemed to stop under the TV as if he was going to say something. He doesn't. He just reaches up and turns the dancing images off.

I touch the IV in my arm. It's still there waiting for that moment of emergency or dehydration. It feels like an outlet in a wall. At any given moment, they have access to my blood. I put my hand over it and say a prayer. The fears subside and I fall off into a dream.

A woman stands at the edge of my bed. I think I have seen her before. She is not a nurse. But, I have seen her before. The nurse is to the right of my bed. "Ms. Douglass...your not getting enough water. We have to hydrate you." I look at her and she is looking at my IV. I shake my head and cover the IV. "Ms. Douglass, we have to medicate you. Your heart is racing. Please Ms. Douglass, calm down!"

My breathing is heavy. I realize I can wake up. I focus on waking up. It's just a dream. I can wake up. The woman at the edge of my bed calls me with her eyes. I look at her and watch her hands extend all the way up the bed and stop over my heart. She tells the nurse that I am fine without saying anything. I don't know how she does this. It's just a dream...I can wake up. I'm falling...open.

She is doing something to me...but, I soon forget her. My heart is gone. No, its there...I'm just in it. And it is open and clear. It looks empty but feels so full and expansive. Each breathe invites peace. Each beat is just an echo of some other heart beating. I realize that I am sitting on a chair that is not there. I like it here. It feels warm like a hug; yet, there's so much space...

"Ms. Douglass?"

So much space...

"Ms. Douglass."

What time is it?

"I just need a sample of blood and you can go back to sleep."

I open my eyes, sit up and force a smile at the tech trying not to look at her blood basket. Vials, needles, alcohol pads, gauze, and something with the nerve to be named a butterfly. I focus on her face. Another nurse is with her. I see last night scribed on their faces. Long night for everyone, I bet.

"More blood," I exclaim initiating our morning ritual. "The doctor said my blood is low. It can't get any higher if ya'll keep taking it."

"I don't understand it either, Ms. Douglass," she laughs.

"Well...alright. Good morning."

"Good morning, Ms. Douglass."

"Can you find another vein? This one hurts."

"But, it's such a good vein," she laughs. "I can see it Ms. Douglass."

"It won't be good by the time I leave. And what's a a butterfly?"

"A very small needle for people with very small veins."

"Who do I have to talk to get one of those?"

"Next time, Ms. Douglass." She lets out a good chuckle. "Next time."

** 1st Photo is a sculpture by Victoria Fuller entitled Plugged In. Check her out at http://objectartist.com/index.html **